Obsession

- This text is best read while listening to Do I Wanna Know by Arctic Monkeys -

Hey, how are you doing? Doing fine without me in your life, or you’re just the same as me, having troubles moving on? I saw you last week but I know you won’t even notice me anymore. Maybe you’re busy texting with that other person, that someone who made you smile while I’m here, looking at you. 

Hey, why were you blushing ? Are you in love with someone new? What about me? I was wondering if you somehow occasionally miss us, and the way we used to be. The memories we created, those times we spent; or did you forget it all? Did you find yourself a new lover? Perhaps that person is different from me, and that’s why you love that person. I guess you’re coping with the breakup much better than me. Have you ever thought of how much I loved and love you? Every day, from the moment I woke up, you’re always there. And somehow, after our brief encounter last week, I can’t even get you out of my dreams. 

Hey, do you still remember all the secrets we shared? So, you still keep them somewhere safe, or have you told everyone about them? I don’t mind though, since all I want now is you. Found a piece of rhapsody that reminds me of you – wonderful and pure. And somehow, I can’t stop repeating it. It is as if the rhapsody was created for you, to capture your essence in a musical piece that makes people fall in love, just like how I am in love with you.

Hey, do you still love me as much as I do? Or is it just an infatuation, an obsession for you? It hurt you know, seeing you go. Watching you leave, knowing there’s nothing I could do to make you stay. It hurt the most since you promised that you’ll stay, regardless of anything. What should I do to make you come back to me? Should I sing you a song every night, conveying all my hopes and love for you? Should I crawl to you, begging you to return that piece of heart you stole and was never returned?

  

These questions I have in my head,
Do I wanna know?
Love, I would give the world to know.

Last conversations

"If somehow you have to choose between me and them, who would you choose?" she suddenly said while munching the last of her fries.

        "what do you mean by that?" he asked back, shocked to hear her question. 

"Just answer the damn question lah"

        "I don't know. Never thought of that before" 

******

"Remember last time I ask you about choosing me and them?" she suddenly asked one day, after classes was over. 

        "yeah I remember. Why?" 

"I really cherish you, and I know choosing is hard. It's okay, you don't have to choose." 

She walked away, leaving the boy speechless and clueless. Little did he knew, it was their last conversation. She was gone, forever. And nothing can bring her back.